After the breakfast extravaganza now in limbo at White Rock Coffee shop. My Father pops up not even 5 minutes of me sitting down outside. He was going by my sister’s to pick up some tables he lent her for the party so I’m not super surprised. I am deleting emails when he says he don’t got a lot of time. I stop what I am doing and engage in a quick chat where he informs me of his plans for the day, Lunch with a friends, some errands, and getting/finding a job. He followed it with ” Its a pain in the ass with a bummer face as he walked away. I responded with a clever ‘just as hard to not have one as it is to have one.’ Thinking he could relate and with the understanding that when unemployed if you don’t have healthy boundaries one tends to become a ‘free’ resource for others labor.
Just another 5 minutes after that A man walks up and asks if he could sit in the empty seat at my table if he was quiet. It was a full house now in a rush hour. I consented and he asks if I’m writing about astrology, I said Yes. Then he proceeds to tell me his ex-wife was into astrology and maybe thats why she’s his ex, because she read the signs. I began to reply with something witty or informative in response then refrained and said Actually I don’t have a response or know one. We sat in silence for a good 20-30minutes before he says a ‘ May the stars shine on you’ farewell. I repeated it back to him with ,”as well.”
I limboed around the area after I had my fill of the coffee shop to spending the last hour, before gettin scooped up, with my sister and her family in the backyard. I had my niece giggling up a storm just by goofin’ around with the beach ball. Once Leigh arrived everything went real quickly being pretty anxious about this goodbye. Most goodbyes but definitely this one. Looking back now a week later when I’m writing this I regret not going back for another goodbye after my things are stored away in the car. For a final hug and kiss from my niece and some words ‘ Listen to Mommy, and Remember your a star’ and a general ‘Be good’ to the whole family. My ego had me small and shying away. Insecurity plus ofcourse alot of emotions letting myself be consumed failing to recognize the potential of everything.
-Tail
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